Sunday, August 28, 2005


So, stress is a bad thing for anyone and really bad when you have MS. Naturally, I've had additional stress this week.
My husband and I had an issue with his ex-wife and her new husband. Apparently they don't like it that we don't want to handle the problems they have with the kids when the kids are at their mom's house. They don't like that we don't want to get involved because the kids do not behave that way at our house. So this whole situation came to a head when my step-son threw a huge temper tantrum, at 11 years old and the step-dad called us screaming at us to take care of it. We hadn't seen the kids in two months. I got mad and said they created this monster and needed to take care of it themselves.
This made them so mad my husbands ex-wife told me that someone, she didn't tell me who, is glad that I have MS.
In the meantime, I've been crying all week and fearing having my step-kids over because I said, "How can we have a relationship with them when we're under scruitiny by their Mom and Step-Dad?"
My husband wasn't looking forward to it either, however, my daughter said, "Don't they love me anymore?" When another week went by and she hadn't heard from her brother and sister.
It tears me up!!

I need to have less stress, I really can't stand it anymore!
I mean, I'm not having major symptoms, except for the fatigue and wanting to bury my head in the sand, but the shots must be helping. I'm on week 40 of the shots too, so that's a good thing. It's just that with everything, the shots just don't seem to be getting easier. But maybe that's the stress. UGH!!! :-)
It will get better, it's really got to get better!

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Too Long since writing

Oh my! It has been a long time since I "blogged". I didn't think I had any readers so I was surprised to see that I had a comment. Thanks for that.

Anyway, I've been so busy. I started a new job on June 6 and I've been so busy there. I work tons and stress a lot and it's probably the worst environment for me, but I actually like what I do.
Aside from it keeping me from my family, it's not too bad. Oh, and the fact that it's like a frat house there.
"Other than that Mrs. Lincoln, how'd you like the play?"

My MS is okay at the moment. I'm a little sore and tired and feeling all sorts of weird things lately, but I'm trying not to go back to my current neuro. I'm waiting to get in with a new one. My goal is to go to someone who gives a crap and who's staff actually give a crap and who actually have an education.
I needed some insurance paperwork to go through and it took them about TEN weeks to get it. Ridiculous!

Anyway, I'm worried about my husband who's had a health issue come up yesterday, as a matter of fact!! I am a little scared! And with our small kids, this just isn't the time.
But other than the health stuff, I'm happy and in love with my husband and my kids. And yes, even when my nearly 5 year old daughter is driving me absolutely crazy, I still love her!!
My son isn't walking yet, but he's getting closer. He's 13 months old now and just cute as anything. He's a real snuggler!! What can be cuter?!?!

Oh... the shots, sometimes just really hard to do, but I've resorted to having a glass of wine before hand... sometimes I even skip that.
I have recently started doing a trick my husband and I taught my daughter for when she got her shots recently. Take a deep breath and blow out really hard! It kind of works, believe it or not. Anything to take the edge off and get my thumb to push the dang button! :-)

For anyone reading this and wanting to know how hard it is, I just have one thing to say, "Just do it!!" And again, my diatribe of switching sites!! It's important!! I couldn't imagine being even more pin-cushiony in areas just because I didn't switch off!!
So go for it and good luck!!
Oh... and since I'm not doing too badly, I'm thinking, hey, it's working!!
I'm signing off... I have to go enjoy our new, big, lovely bed!!
Good night!!