Saturday, January 28, 2006

Shots

Okay, I've been on Copaxone for over a year (62 weeks to be exact, since I write that on each weekly page of my shot diary.). I have only missed my daily shot maybe 5 times.
Lately when I take my shot my daughter (5 years old) keeps coming over to ask me where I took the shot, if she wasn't there to watch me, and then she will say, "Oh, poor Mommy. You'll be okay." I say to her, "Honey, I'm okay. It's okay." Because I try so hard not to let her think it's hurting me.
Then one day last week she said, "Mommy, when I'm older will I have to take shots too?"
Oh my I hope not!!! And that's all I can say to her, "I hope not honey!"
I can't lie and say, "No, you'll never have to!" Because I just don't know. If my parents had told me that I wouldn't have had to go through all that I've gone through in the last three years, I'd probably be pretty bitter, maybe.
All I can think to say to her is "They'll be a cure and if not a cure, medicine like this helps."
Gees, I hate this! Not the having to take shots (I loath those! ;-)), not the living with MS, but trying to explain it to people and especially my children. My son is 18 months old now. He'll be asking the same questions soon enough. I just want to have better answers for them.

3 comments:

ckays1967 said...

I take Rebif...because it is only three times a week. It hurts too.


What can you do?

I cry, do you cry? Heck, I can't even do it myself, my husband has too. I was bruising myself.

mdmhvonpa said...

Then one day last week she said, "Mommy, when I'm older will I have to take shots too?"

My second greatest fear ....

Vivian said...

I am so sorry, I understand your pain when you look into your child's eyes to try to answer. My husband has MS and then my son who is 7 has Type 1 diabetes and takes 4 plus shots a day. We are right there with you on being tired of shots. I think my girls often wonder if they will have to do this as well. Just know you are not alone in your journey. Here is hoping for a cure.