Sunday, January 27, 2008

Feeling better

I'm feeling better.

I went off the Zoloft and back to my Celexa. I also took the Neurontin and the itching stopped. Of course fatigue kicked in double-time, but it always does at this time of the month too. SIGH!

My mom's Aunt died... it was a couple days after my lowest point. My mom was so upset, I knew at that moment I needed to get strong again. I went up for the funeral and also got to see my best friend and came home a bit more clear headed. Not so tragic.

The day I left to go up for the funeral, I also spoke with a new MS Counselor and it just helped talking to someone a lot. Someone who could give me that objective view and remind me, "This is MS".

My kids are so great! My son makes me giggle every day and my daughter amazes me with her fabulous talent and intelligence.

A lot to stay strong for. The best thing the counselor said is that I'm struggling with the asking part. I've always been the one to take care of others and having to ask for someone to do that for me just about breaks my heart. It's extremely humbling. Especially when I'm physically capable now to take care of myself.

Right now my son is playing his Thomas the Train laptop and he just turned it upside down, so the screen is on his lap and he's holding it up to his face closely - and keeps hitting the "Train Whistle" button. Now that's what I wish I had on my laptop! LOL! Forget extra memory - I need a train whistle. Such a great kid. He's tired and needs to nap and is fighting it. He's so like me! Only - it's really hard to fight a nap with fatigue - but believe me, I've tried. And I probably act just like my son does. :-)

You know, I really and truly appreciate all my readers. I know I haven't been helpful lately, but you all need to know that your comments have helped me tremendously. Thank you so much!

I hope you're all well - we're on the last legs of Winter - and hopefully it goes by quickly! The no sun days aren't very helpful with depression. DUH! :-)
Please take care, stay warm and stay safe!


mdmhvonpa said...

Sorry about your Great Aunt ... life does not seem to wait much for us, eh?

wonlife said...

ha, we're mid-winter here in maine. if we're lucky.



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Hi, I apologize for the 'form' letter but it is the easiest way to pass word most quickly.

I am thrilled with the response to the MS Blogger project started at my blog, Brass and Ivory. I appreciate all those who took time to post about it on their blogs. I have discovered even more bloggers who have MS, whether they blog about the MS or not. A new listing is available at MS Blogger Community Project Revised.

Secondly, I'm looking for submissions for next week's Carnival of MS Bloggers. Information can be found at the end of each issue archived at Carnival of MS Bloggers. What I'm looking for this week are posts related to creativity. I discovered so many new bloggers who quilt, or knit, or crochet, or write, or photograph, etc. Basically, what do you do to express yourself?

Thank you so much for participating.

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P.S. I also apologize for any increased 'spamming' of blog comments due to my growing linklist of bloggers with MS. For that I am sincerely sorry.

Mabel said...

Hello, My name is Mabel, I'm 33 yeas old and MS since 2000. I have 3 kids and I'm fully in love with them.
I was depressed too, but now I feel like I can eat the wrold. I was on medication for depress for almost a year. Now I feel good. I'm alive, my children are the best and my housband is my treasure.
Sorry about my english, I live in Chile and I speak spanish, but we have MS in common, so I know exactly how you feel. I could have written your blog, beacuse it's exactly what I felt. But you will get over it, I'm sure, because I did it.
Best regards